I want to do this! For Real

I have been reading many blogs, for a while.

I love reading blogs, seeing how the other half lives.  Sometimes it makes me a bit jelous.....the stay at home mommies, who have time to blog daily, have pretty organised houses.  The people who live in countries not being wrecked by crime.  The pictures of no-burglar barred windows. The creative mommies, who make home made treats, and have time to pin all their ideas.

And here I am.  Just hanging on by the skin of my teeth.  Barely making it. Working a job I hate. Figuring out how to budget my way around a new, very much more expensive bond.  My internet shopping addiction.  My love for pretty, totally unnecessary gadgets. My dream of being a stay at home mommy.  Spending time with my 2 year old. Having a happy marriage. Yes or no to a second human? Traffic. Prettying up the new house.  Trying to DIY my way around. And I figure, I am not perfect.  I am not a stay at home mommy, I don't have all my ducks in a row. But dammit I can blog.  I can but my thoughts my frustrations and possibly even my dreams out there.  Instead of journaling them, instead of writing them in a book I can do it here. 

If no one reads it, its ok, they would not have read the book anyway. 

So what are my dreams?  What do I really want? What irritates me?

Well to start with, the fact that I can not keep writing this right now, and have to work ... more on that later.