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Iris the cute frenchi over at the colored married life does a weekly SONG BOOK FILM LOVE over on her blog http://matthewandiris.blogspot.com/ ... 

So this week:

S:  Man in the mirror by Michael Jackson - Oldie, but its been on the radio a a lot and I love it. 

I'm Gonna Make A Change,
For Once In My Life
It's Gonna Feel Real Good,
Gonna Make A Difference
Gonna Make It Right . . .

As I, Turn Up The Collar On My
Favourite Winter Coat
This Wind Is Blowin' My Mind
I See The Kids In The Street,
With Not Enough To Eat
Who Am I, To Be Blind?
Pretending Not To See
Their Needs
A Summer's Disregard,
A Broken Bottle Top
And A One Man's Soul
They Follow Each Other On
The Wind Ya' Know
'Cause They Got Nowhere
To Go
That's Why I Want You To
Know

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change)
(Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah)

I've Been A Victim Of A Selfish
Kind Of Love
It's Time That I Realize
That There Are Some With No
Home, Not A Nickel To Loan
Could It Be Really Me,
Pretending That They're Not
Alone?

A Widow Deeply Scarred,
Somebody's Broken Heart
And A Washed-Out Dream
(Washed-Out Dream)
They Follow The Pattern Of
The Wind, Ya' See
Cause They Got No Place
To Be
That's Why I'm Starting With
Me
(Starting With Me!)

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
(Ooh!)
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Ooh!)
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change)

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
(Ooh!)
I'm Asking Him To Change His
Ways
(Change His Ways-Ooh!)
And No Message Could've
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make That . . .
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make That . . .)
Change!

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror,
(Man In The Mirror-Oh
Yeah!)
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Better Change!)
No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make The Change)
(You Gotta Get It Right, While
You Got The Time)
('Cause When You Close Your
Heart)
You Can't Close Your . . .Your
Mind!
(Then You Close Your . . .
Mind!)
That Man, That Man, That
Man, That Man
With That Man In The Mirror
(Man In The Mirror, Oh Yeah!)
That Man, That Man, That Man
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Better Change!)
You Know . . .That Man
No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah
(Oh Yeah!)
Gonna Feel Real Good Now!
Yeah Yeah! Yeah Yeah!
Yeah Yeah!
Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah
(Ooooh . . .)
Oh No, No No . . .
I'm Gonna Make A Change
It's Gonna Feel Real Good!
Come On!
(Change . . .)
Just Lift Yourself
You Know
You've Got To Stop It.
Yourself!
(Yeah!-Make That Change!)
I've Got To Make That Change,
Today!
Hoo!
(Man In The Mirror)
You Got To
You Got To Not Let Yourself . . .
Brother . . .
Hoo!
(Yeah!-Make That Change!)
You Know-I've Got To Get
That Man, That Man . . .
(Man In The Mirror)
You've Got To
You've Got To Move! Come
On! Come On!
You Got To . . .
Stand Up! Stand Up!
Stand Up!
(Yeah-Make That Change)
Stand Up And Lift
Yourself, Now!
(Man In The Mirror)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Aaow!
(Yeah-Make That Change)
Gonna Make That Change . . .
Come On!
(Man In The Mirror)
You Know It!
You Know It!
You Know It!
You Know . . .
(Change . . .)
Make That Change.

B:  Robert Pattinson - Womens murder club the 6th target

F:  Zambezia - Yep Kiddie movie, what you gonna do, I am a mom and the movie's main character's name is KAI! the guy in the sky

L:  My boy! 

where do I start?

I am not sure where to start. I am bit obsessive compulsive, anal if you will. 

Like when I find a pen I like, I have to have it in every colour. When I write notes at work in my book and it looks ugly because I was in a rush, I will tear out the entire page and rewrite the notes... you know just your avarage run of the mill weirdo.
I go through phases, like my recent crafting phase, I have to have everything, the glues, the paints, the stickies the laminator a new printer, a label maker .... this came straight after my baking phase, I have every bloody baking gadget known to man....used each one maybe once. 

So with that said I find it hard to figure out where to start on this. My OCD self says at the beginning, but my rational self says, it will come. Relax.

i feel like i should start with the important stuff, where i live, where i was born, to whom.  growing up, meeting the man, getting married, buying houses, selling them, having a human.....i am sure it will come, maybe when i am more ready to actually write it down, maybe I am not ready to put all that out there.  

I read blogs and realize wow there are really good writers out there.  One of my favorites right now is  http://littleandbunny.blogspot.com/ and her blog post today was bloody phenominal! I loved it, it was in a word, stunning. 

Kai went down pretty easily tonight, normally that means a ruff night.  the nights we struggle the most to get him down, he sleeps better.  go figure. 

Random ramblings, i am sure it will get more structured as i go along 

I want to do this! For Real

I have been reading many blogs, for a while.

I love reading blogs, seeing how the other half lives.  Sometimes it makes me a bit jelous.....the stay at home mommies, who have time to blog daily, have pretty organised houses.  The people who live in countries not being wrecked by crime.  The pictures of no-burglar barred windows. The creative mommies, who make home made treats, and have time to pin all their ideas.

And here I am.  Just hanging on by the skin of my teeth.  Barely making it. Working a job I hate. Figuring out how to budget my way around a new, very much more expensive bond.  My internet shopping addiction.  My love for pretty, totally unnecessary gadgets. My dream of being a stay at home mommy.  Spending time with my 2 year old. Having a happy marriage. Yes or no to a second human? Traffic. Prettying up the new house.  Trying to DIY my way around. And I figure, I am not perfect.  I am not a stay at home mommy, I don't have all my ducks in a row. But dammit I can blog.  I can but my thoughts my frustrations and possibly even my dreams out there.  Instead of journaling them, instead of writing them in a book I can do it here. 

If no one reads it, its ok, they would not have read the book anyway. 

So what are my dreams?  What do I really want? What irritates me?

Well to start with, the fact that I can not keep writing this right now, and have to work ... more on that later.